Work is driving me nuts! I am rushing from this location to that location everyday! I even worked over the weekends!!!!! Aaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh!! I need a breather!!!!!!!!!ontemplating a short getaway at the end of the month. Need some timeout from the hustle and bustle of this clean and green city.

Nary a day pass by without thoughts of her permeating my mind. Guess we all cherish a lost love more than anything. Be it a song on the radio or the name of a place, it never fails to induce tears or feelings of yesterday. The vivid memories kept tugging at my heart strings repeatedly. Maybe one day the heart strings will snap. Maybe one day, the heart will beat soundly again. I miss the feeling of being in love and I miss 'US' so much. Just receiving an 'I love you' message is enough to leave me beaming with joy in the past. Yet I do not say it often enough to her which I so regret now.

Heading for bedtime as it will be another hectic day for this entire week. Sigh... Can't I just rest for even half a day?? Stop expecting me to go everywhere!!!!!! Give me a LIFE! Throw me a lifeline!!!!

I pondered long and hard before I sent her a message to ask how is she. I have always wanted to know, but never had the courage to ask. Like Elva Hsiao's song, KISS, it is always so painful when both of us agreed to let it go and here I am thinking if she is now in the arms of another.

the sms was never replied. I wonder what was the reason. Perhaps she seen it and forgot to reply. Perhaps the current gf deleted it? Perhaps she has changed her mobile number? Don't you think its rude not to reply? Have you ever ignore smses sent to you? I never did. Whether or not, I like the person or dislike the person, I make my intentions know. Ignoring a response is cowardice, where you could not even make out a proper response. Anyway, it went unanswered.

Better head to bed since I expect a busy day ahead. Shan't not think too much right now. Let things chill abit.

It has been a busy week where I rushed all over the place, trying to get stuff and in preparation for spring collection to be launched by mid may.

Tried as I may, I could never explain, what's said between you and i. The smile on your kiss let me know that you are with me, the truth in your eyes says you never leave me. The touch of your hand and your smile, whenever you see me. You say it best, when you say nothing at all. Ronan Keating

Wishing you were somehow here again. Wishing you were somehow near. - Christine from Phantom of the Opera....

Jay chou's concert tickets are SOLD OUT! The website's hanged for the longest time when I tried to login since 9.45am. Thought I could get a pair and probably ask if she wanna come along. But I guess, unless I get it on the black market for a higher rate, there is absolutely zilch chance of ever getting it on sistic. Why can't they make him sing for a few more nights or to choose a bigger venue like the expo or something!!! Its so frustrating! Its hotter than formula 1 sia.

Quite tired. Shall varrrooommmmmm into dreamland. Adieu.

Are cyberfriendship real? Can you trust people over the internet?

I have a whole list of cyberfriends whom I met at various websites. Sometimes what they are seemingly so genuine and heartfelt, sometimes it sounds OTT. Anyway, I shall just enjoy all these story telling sessions and learn through people's experiences.

Anyway, chemistry is not fostered overnight, it probably takes a while longer for you to know a person online and then decide if you will like to progress to real friendship in person. Even if so, how many of our own friends do we ever meet often? Its probably your closest network that you meet and everyone else have their own life to lead.

As for these cyber friends, some has became a flash in the pan, never to see them again in the rest of my life and some are still remotely hanging around. Probably only 1 or 2 of them I still remain close in contact.

A couple of nights ago, I heard some pretty melodramatic relationship stories from an older person whom I met online and I look forward to part 3 tonight/tomorrow night when I get to see her online. The things she went through is simply amazing and I wonder how people of such strength perserve in life 's hardship and still remain so positive. Wishing her well and may the best things come her way.

It has been raining non-stop since late March. The cold cold weather seems reflective of my heart. It is getting colder by the day. I wish for some warmth. Last week, I held someone's hand at a club, it was not an action of affection or romance, but merely leading the person out of the club. It felt pretty good. I don't know if he felt the same at that moment in time. I guess there are just some of these fleeting moments of connection or attraction that you feel for someone.

A close friend wanted to match make me with someone else last year, but I guess we are from different worlds. Sometimes I wonder what my ex is doing and if she still thinks of me from time to time. Anyway, all these had pass and I should not be harbouring thoughts of yesteryears anymore.

I feel so pressurised. Is a girl's life revolve only around family? That only when you are part of a family is that considered complete? Almost everyone around me is attached or married, I am really feeling the heat. I will be turning 30 in a couple of years and this has created undue pressures on me.

I used to be with someone for a couple of years but I guess our chemistry fizzled out. We still keep in touch and I guess I am just looking around for a soulmate who can accompany me for the rest of my life.

My parents are not getting younger as well and I am sure they are embarrassed about me from time to time. I am not sure if I could turn out to be what they wanted or to continue living a lie. Some people think they know me, but they don't. Neither do I bother to clarify.

I am very lost and confused. I wish life could be a lot simpler and that 'happily ever after' do exist. I am a fan of Hans Christian Anderson and certainly don't wish to turn out like the Little Mermaid. But everytime I love, I fall hard and deeply. I end up hurting myself so much.

也许下次 见面的时候
心中会有一丝茫然恍若隔世
毕竟我们 从不曾分别那么久
月光正明亮把我们分隔两方

＊每次相爱 我总不设防
无能为力面对任何谣言和中伤
你去回想 过去我对你怎么样
让你去猜疑是我最大的遗憾

＃冷冷夜色总是教人彷徨
我不相信那是因为太孤单
爱情世界可以是很简单
我不相信相爱下场是如此荒凉

＋我爱你 不是爱给别人看
何必去管别人怎么讲
别让世界教你迷惘
我爱你 不是爱给别人看
何必去猜别人怎么想
在你心中留个地方
容许我坚持向你证明
爱真的可以地老天荒

Some people find it hard to express their thoughts linguistically.

Some people find it hard to carry a tune.

Some people find it hard to stay faithful.

Some people find it hard to fall in love.

Some people find it hard to find that special someone.

Me, I find it hard to pass a single hour without thinking of YOU.

It has been a really boring day with meetings at work, responding to email and trying to motivate myself to do more. I can't seem to get my act together and Friday is simply 24 minutes away. I do not want to be a social loafer and yet I find difficulties in leading this project group. Sigh... I am feeling so incompetent and the upcoming changes in manpower shuffling does not excite me a SINGLE BIT.

From fridae to herstory, I find this website pretty quiet and quaint in comparision. The community is a lot smaller and the members are less interactive. Need to try to get to know more people around here so that I can make more friends. The new media is the way to know more such people and I heard someone got hitched to a guy who sent her a message via friendster! Well, not everyone behind the monitor is some old weird transsexual because they are usually prowling the streets instead.

So if anyone who feels like having an intelligent conversation, feel free to PM me. I am up for a chat on anything, except religious stuff since I respect all faiths and religions.

It fascinates me when people can stay together for long periods, when I meant long, I suppose it would be more than 7 years and more, when the romance element fizzes, when you can comfortably wake up in each other's arms (looking your worst) and tolerate each other's idiosyncrasies.

For married couples, probably the presence of children add to the family bonding and leaves them with little or not time for romance. How about those without children and for people like us? What more could we tie our partners/husbands with? I have had witnessed girlfriends' close to breaking up with their boyfriends over fidelity issues and yet in the end, they made up. But how long will it take before their boyfriends stray again?

I was lucky that my ex did not cheat on me in my last relationship and I cannot really tell about those fleeting ones. But I guess at the end of the day, if one really feels that one cannot be trusted anymore, I guess it is timely that one puts an end to the burning rope before it reaches one's heart.

I guess from time to time, one will be tempted by the amorous pursuit, but its about holding one's faith to the pledge that you had made to the relationship in the first place. I supposed I had in some time also fell drawn to others and luckily temptation was not that strong which kept me loyal in my relationships which I can proudly put to my name so far. But then again, it will be a test of willpower when temptation presents itself.